Not morning jukebox but dream music, as in, I was singing this and sounding just like Linda. I know I played the grooves flat on HEART LIKE A WHEEL and went on to abuse the cassette.
What story the song wants me to tell isn't clear. The dream was fading, the music remained vibrant. Whether they have anything to do with each other or not, I am being enlightened on how little I know of grieving. Lucky for me, I don't think there is only one right way to do it. The operative words, though, are Do It. Where do I begin when the years and the losses have been so numerous? I feel like the unintentionally dammed creek, logjams, clogs and impediments, fresh water reduced to a trickle and everything downstream parched and gasping.
Grief unacknowledged is trying to live a full life in smaller and smaller boxes. It is default adapting just to keep from dwindling to no movement at all. I've tried to reshape it into a problem with an intellectual solution and it will not cooperate. Unaddressed, it will never leave. My best guess is to start writing about it.
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Yes. Write about it. You are a writer and this is your process. Your words unchain not just you but also those of us who read you. Keep writing, friend.
Angella - Thank you. I do believe we are much better at finding our way out - or through - with help from one another. I know this is a big assignment. xo
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