Thursday, April 4, 2013

"...taking black spray paint to your third eye."


This will be the song of the day,  the choice possibly inspired by bleed-throughs from other states of consciousness, other knowing.

“I believe in intuitions and inspirations...I sometimes FEEL that I am right. I do not KNOW that I am.”
Albert Einstein

One day, one moment, is not like another.  Each arrives with an agenda and secrets.  If we are caught up in drama, the whisperings are too soft for us to hear.  Keeping to the bright side of the road takes fancy stepping, a choreography that I wasn't taught or, if I was, I unlearned.

I have, however, learned to notice the moments, the instants when there is a shift.  I think of Ray Bradbury's "The Illustrated Man," turning in his sleep, the images on his skin coming to life, telling their stories.  It feels to me that we are being led further and further from nuance, subtleties, the oblique, and that our own turnings go unnoticed.  Their power to direct the flow of our lives is diminished by the bludgeoning effects of what passes for information.  Comedian Bill Hicks said, "Watching television is like taking black spray paint to your third eye."

I mention this because last night I went to bed in a state of deep fatigue.  When I am that tired, I have trouble remembering it isn't always like this, the good times are not all gone.  This morning, weariness decreased,  I was able to feel the stirrings almost too faint to be identified.  We never know when the wind will change.  All we are asked to do is know that it will. 

Keep coming back.




12 comments:

RachelVB said...

I needed this today, thank you.
The Einstein quote reminds me of writing - why we do it - we don't know anything, but we feel it and everything starts in that feeling. We feel a moment or an emotion and we put it down so we can know it.

I love that quote. Thank you for introducing me to it.
xo

beth coyote said...

The weariness is something to give in to because sometimes we don't know how very tired we are. I've spent half the day in my bathrobe.

I watched a Fran Liebowitz documentary yesterday and she talked about wasting a lot of time, a lot of time. She let me off the hook.

Marylinn Kelly said...

Rachel - Isn't timing everything and don't you love how it surprises us by working out? Glad the quote spoke to you. I'm finding much that I DIDN'T know until I put it down. xo

Marylinn Kelly said...

Beth - What I must learn to surrender to is not knowing the source of the weariness, at least not always, just that it is. Do you wonder if it actually possible to waste time or is it just a matter of making a different choice? I travel in slow circles a lot. xo

beth coyote said...

I have a ready-made excuse because I'm a midwife and my time is often not my own. And sleep is such a beautiful thing. Weariness is a bliss state. One where we can enter other realms to gather what we need. For battle, for emergence, for understanding the trees in our lives.

XX Beth

Marylinn Kelly said...

Beth - I like very much the notion of weariness as a bliss state, for I seem to find myself there often these days, and intuition says gather myself to myself. Yes, for understanding the trees and all the other magic of our lives. This is where I am. Thank you for putting an "X" on the map for me. xo

Angella said...

I love these words, these whispers calling me back from the busyness that drowns out nuance. Keep coming back. It works if you work it. Thanks for reminding me to be mindful.

T. Clear said...

I do indeed keep coming back, for the insightfulness you offer, the attention to nuance and the subtle details of every day.

Thank you, Marylinn.

xo

Marylinn Kelly said...

Angella - It does work if we work it. How did they know so much, how did they figure out where to put our foot for the first step? Thank you. xo

Marylinn Kelly said...

T. - Thank you. I would be lost without the connection, at times only just remembered, to the unseen, the scarcely noticed. Perhaps we are all part spider held to center by invisible filaments. xo

Kass said...

I do keep coming back, especially when encouraged by your words.

I must take heed to this:
Comedian Bill Hicks said, "Watching television is like taking black spray paint to your third eye."

Marylinn Kelly said...

Kass - Bless you for coming back. We both have so much to discover. xo