Sunday, October 18, 2015
The sisters creep up on Halloween
Among their multiple imaginary personas. Photo found here. |
They were a one-tiara family and Ambulancia, as the elder sister, claimed the crown as hers. Sireena retaliated by grabbing all the pastel tulle from deconstructed prom dresses, lashing it about her waist, not unlike Odysseus and the mast, refusing to untie it or share unless some detente could be reached about the rhinestone head piece. The wailings they generated caused drivers to pull over and stop as they motored north on Fair Oaks Avenue, scanning rear view mirrors for emergency vehicles which never materialized.
Matters at school were no less fraught, the wearing of tiaras and ballooning net overskirts being unwelcome on any day that wasn't actually Halloween. The sisters, stubborn eyes agleam, were sent home for the duration. They seemed oddly jubilant. Even victorious. The unplanned holidays gave them uncommitted hours to squabble and plot. To be continued. Honest.
Monday, October 19, 2015
Episode 2: The sisters creep up on Halloween
A frou-frou bonanza. |
The tiara in question. |
The vintage tulle was taking on a fatigued air, belted as it was with gift wrapping ribbon and worn for days - and nights. The tiara fared somewhat better, being more sturdily made and not being sat or slept upon. Ambulancia built for herself a head-cradling pillow mound, tucked against the far wall side of her bed, that allowed her to sleep with the tiara in place and kept her unreachable by any hands seeking to plunder. Her mother thought in sleep she resembled a half-mad dowager of royal ancestry determined to keep the throne, the rest of the world be damned.
As household nerves and costume materials began to fray, their mother asked the girls who exactly they planned to be for Halloween. There was some muttering that sounded like "princesses" but one couldn't be certain. "If we had two tiaras," shrilled Sireena, "we could be, like, zombie bridesmaids or, you know, just sort of Grey Gardens bridesmaids."
"Wilted, withered bouquets," Ambulancia volunteered. "Chipped manicures, torn hems, smeary lipstick." One of the things the girls loved best about costumes was makeup. Lots and lots of experimenting with makeup.
"What if I got you matching tiaras, like bridesmaids would have?" their mother asked. "Would that work?" Shrugging, turning their faces away and mumbling, the girls said, "It might." Their mother, whose temples already throbbed at the notion of these children referring to Grey Gardens as inspiration for costumes, nodded gently and said, "Good." She helped Sireena release herself from the bunchy cloud of old gowns and saw that Ambulancia removed the antique tiara and put it away.
When their mother was out of the room, the sisters scowled at each other, battling with mean-eyed, squinty stares and stuck-out tongues. Then each began to chuckle softly, little "heh heh heh" sounds. Oh help us, with Halloween still so many days away. To be continued.
18 comments:
Erin
Penelope - Equal measures, sometimes, yet leaning toward joy...imagine what ill-fitting tasks might have come our way (although I don't believe that would happen). Thank you, and strength in your endeavors, as well.
several times lately you've made a comment that has been a key to the lock that has stifled me. the above line has helped me find my place again in my empty journal.
But as a filmmaker, the parallel thought troubles me. Film is my media. I had a compelling and unique story to tell. But now that the story has been told, what then? Do I seek another? Do I wait until one presents itself? Or do I say, my one contribution is of significance on it's own merit and I need say no more.
It seems writers, though, are compelled to write or they cease to exist. Am I wrong?
In the book, describing the diving, (of which I have never experienced) they dive down 250 feet to the wreck, following a dive line. Visability is poor. They have so much time to search, then the majority of the time, they must return to the diving line, taking up to 90 minutes to decompress as they slowly rise to the surface.
This reminds me of what you were saying in your post about writing. It takes focus, disapline, risk, patience, following a plan, a structure, guidelines. Contrary to what I thought, the majority of the divers preferred to dive and search alone.
It is like diving, in that we dive into a dark abyss with a premise, a thought, an outline... we think we know where we are going, but then something else pops up and we want to explore it. We cannot deviate or allow our folly to overcome us or we lose our perspective.
We need to colaborate and support one another. I want to do a book on my Dad. I feel like someone dumped a truckload of slippery seaweed on me. I feel all tangled and confused. Overwhelmed and unsure where to start...
I can so relate to the solitary isolation of writing. We need a support group. That is the purpose of my blog, Discovering The Purpose Of Our Lives...we need to start a writers support group. What do you think?
Also, I went to Penny's (Penny's Word) blog and discovered it had been deleted. I emailed her personal email, hoping her daughter or husband would check it and give me an update, so I could share it with you and Jerry (as I know you both follow her too). I have not heard a word. Have you?
I am just sick about her accident and hope she has not had a turn for the worse...
Thank you for another rich post. As other readers here have already said, your words are powerful, illuminating, a bunch of keys offered up in open hands - and so much more besides.
Seems to me you are doing what you must - writing. Because you have to and because you have valuable things to communicate. Your words contribute meaningfully to our community and connect up all kinds of dots along their way.
such a resonance. with the entire post, and especially this sentance. the drawings and bits of writing are some sort of attempt at manufacturing a flashlight for myself. a way to see the world so i can actual ask a question. pin a question down. and more often than not, i feel like i'm flailing rather than searching. but i've chosen to just keep on responding to whatever call this is. i can't not respond to it.
your statement "One of my core beliefs is that each of us is called to something and as long as it does no harm, the possibilities are infinite." is a massive comfort to me and right away i trust such an assertion. i need to trust it, i suppose. and to know that i am not the only diver in the dark, to use another commenter's metaphor.
thank you, marylinn
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Robert - I can't say that my need to write contains anything as altruistic as adding to the vast body of written work; a thought that seems meaningful in my head may be much less so when exposed to the light. We get to write. We take nothing away from anyone by doing so. And while we (I assume) still exist whether we write or not, the experience is painfully diminished.
With film as a medium, the process of creating is, first of all, more logistically complex. If you do it without collaboration, many skills are required. I guess my question is, what part of it is the most fulfilling? I interned at a cable station, learning camera, editing, make-up, on-air, news writing...of which I really loved the camera and, briefly, especially after watching Haskell Wexler's work, thought of making documentaries.
From the stories you share on your blog, it seems clear that you know what is worth telling. We, and the world, contain endless points of view, myriad stories. Of course your contribution is significant and stands alone. But does the process keep tugging at you? I believe your eye will lead you. I am coming to accept that the act of working at something we love is sufficient in itself; that we have a result or a product is a gift. If you want to talk more about this, I am happy to continue the dialogue.
I am not good at a plan, I never have been, unless the plan is simply showing up at the keyboard. I know that consistency through structure works very well for many highly successful writers. But I think intuition also plays an important part in what we create. If some nugget appears and lures us in a different direction, how can we know its value if we don't pursue it, at least for a while?
The project you are taking on, the book about your father, must feel overwhelming as you look at the sum of his, so far, 90 years. You notice I write in short, posting-length blurts. For today, that's what I can manage. Sometimes we benefit from setting the piece aside and either writing - or doing - something else, often returning with a fresh point of view. We can talk of this more, and I know we will. But right now, I don't feel that I am able to commit to being a reliable, participating member of a support group but am there in spirit with all you gather.
And I haven't heard any more about Penny, but suspect that her family is focused on seeing her recover and keeping themselves as close to normal as they can. I know there must be many eager to know how she's doing,but we are, at best, a distant thought. And seeing how they stepped forward immediately to let us know of her accident and progress, I think we will hear when there is something to report. For now, all I know to do is keep them all in my thoughts.
Claire - My thanks to you. I read your comment to a friend who understood how much it means to be seen as contributing to the greater community. You and Sherry both mentioned keys which tells me that what I dig for and unearth as part of my process resonates more widely, which is so affirming. May we and our dots continue to connect.
It may be a defective part of me, but I am wary of the supremely overconfident. Doubt may be the shameful sock with the hole that we put on - forgot the laundry, again - when we wear our best suit and best face to go out and champion ourselves. I have trouble believing that anyone is without at least a particle of it.
It could just be for today and tomorrow I will have a very different tune, but I think there is something almost giddy about the magnitude of uncertainty we humans face. What warriors, what optimists we are to keep showing up when nothing is promised or guaranteed.
TO ALL WHO HAVE COMMENTED: Again, I thank you for helping create a serious, meaningful dialogue about our shared process...I am, at times, briefly overcome and need a space before I reply. You all make this so much more than I ever expected. xoxo
I keep re-reading your blog. You express yourself so elequently and the words you choose are so inspiring and magical, generating seeds of creative thought as I read them.
You are your Father's daughter and he has passed a talented gift onto you. Embrace it, because you have an incredible and captivating way with words.
Thank you for letting me know, as well as any others who come here who followed her writing and photography. And I so appreciate your kind words. Aren't we fortunate that our mutual compulsion brought us together. Take care, my friend. xoxo
this is a beautiful post. I often wonder about the walking world and the writing world. The further I go into the writing world, the longer I want to stay there. Can it lead to obsession at some point? There is a pull to immerse myself in that world because it is a world of color and fear and creativity and so much possibility. It is a muddy world where nothing is clear. I'm learning this the more I make myself a part of it.
We are lonely creatures and want so much to be a part of things.
I haven't had much time to write in the past couple of days and my need is even greater than it was when I was doing it every day.
I feel it is the most natural high. It's a drug to me - that's the only likeness I can find. It's a want. It has highs and lows.
All I know is that I can't stop it. and my need for it is something I may never be able to touch. But it will move me forward in life and writing.
Once again I think we need balance between the worlds - but that differs for every person. I love both aspects of my life - walking and writing. I want to maintain both.
You are not alone in what you feel - though we feel our loneliness in such drifts.
xo
Rachel