Period of research

"The world is so big, so complicated, so replete with marvels and surprises that it takes years for most people to begin to notice that it is, also, irretrievably broken. We call this period of research 'childhood'.” Michael Chabon on Wes Anderson's Worlds, here.

Explaining is one of the things I don't believe we have to do, an inalienable right, so my connective leaps, which may not make sense to me but I trust them all the same, are not expected to make sense to you.  Hooray if they do and if not, we press on regardless.

Earlier I posted about what resonates and remains, the way in which all we are, all we seek somehow connects to that "period of research" to which Chabon refers.

Since then a 4 a.m. thought threw its opaque cloak over me and hissed that we get to rewrite our story.  A classic of duality, the thought spoke of all that we previously experienced being everything and nothing: every loss, trauma, disappointment, conversation, prayer, lover, child, dance, story - all of it fitting together inside the skin shaped like us, while simultaneously falling away like the boosters that carry spacecraft just far enough so that additional oomph can be discarded and the craft can navigate on its own.  If being asked both to retain and jettison our childhoods does not represent the model of contradiction and ambiguity, then I guess I'm more confused than I believed.

Again, all the words have not yet come into neat alignment, again it is more of a sense than a prepared lecture.  I have no proof, other than my split-screen image of how all the history exists and is the cumulative everything and is something we leave on the other side of the closed door as we move on.

We're gonna leave all our troubles behind

For today, let's walk and don't look back.  And Mick,  were any of us every that young?  One of my happy songs, not thought of in years.



When I am being serenaded as I wake up, I pay attention.  Today it was Peter Tosh.  Little did I know he was sharing the stage.  When the words have something to tell me, I pay even closer attention.  Today could bring the first steps in a long dance away from people, thoughts, experiences and swirling uncertainties that are no longer here, no longer apply.  Amnesia in its mildest form can be a gift.  Forget about it.  Let it go.  Nothing like a reggae beat to start the forward momentum.  Just put your hand in mine.  xo

(YOU GOT TO WALK AND) DON'T LOOK BACK
Mick Jagger & Peter Tosh


VERSE:
If it's love that you're running from
There is no hiding place
(You can't run, you can't hide, you can't run)
Just your problems no one elses problems
You just have to face
(You can't run, you can't hide, you can't run)

CHORUS:
So if you just put your hand in mine
We're gonna leave all our troubles behind

We gonna walk
And don't look back (Don't look back)

We gonna walk
And don't look back (Don't look back)

VERSE:
Now if your first lover let you down
There's something that can be done
(You can't run, you can't hide, you can't run)
Don't heal your faith in love
Remembering what's become

CHORUS:
So if you just put your hand in mine
We're gonna leave all our troubles behind
We gonna walk
And don't look back (Don't look back)
We gonna walk
And don't look back (Don't look back)

INSTRUMENTAL 

CHORUS:

BREAK:
Places behind you
There to remind you

VERSE:
If your first lover broke your heart
Something can be done
(You can't run, you can't hide, you can't run)
Don't heal your faith in love
Remembering whats been lost
(You can't run, you can't hide, you can't run)

CHORUS:

OUTRO

MICK JAGGER and PETER TOSH hold this conversation while background singers continue singing back-up

(P.T.) How far you been walking man?
(M.J.) About a hundred miles
(P.T.) You still got some more to walk man
(M.J.) I know, don't remind me about it
(P.T.) I'm getting tired, but I still got to keep on walking
(M.J.) I'm walking barefoot
(P.T.) You know, keep on walking
(M.J.) You got to walk and don't look back
(P.T.) Keep on a walking
You got to walk and don't look back
Keep on a walking
You got to walk and don't look back

FADE OUT: